honestly It takes everything in me

Sometimes I think when I’m still up in the middle of night you are doing the same thing

Sometimes I think when I’m tired from a long hard week you’re thinking the same feeling

I bet, when I’m looking out my window and crying you’re getting up from your sleep and sitting in your chair by the window begin to lit your cigarette.

And I think when you’re looking  out at the city you wonder ‘bout me

I bet, I’m gonna be crazy with those bulshet thinking

Indirectly you told me that you’ve moved on

And probably you wanna make me feel that you’re glad with your life now

And warning me not to bother you 

I’m sure about that, you have not to convince everything in detail

I just wanna tell you, It takes everything in me, not to call you

And I wish I could run to you, And I hope you know that

You know…every time I don’t do that I almost do..

I bet, you think I either moved on or avoid you or maybe hate you

Cause each time you reach out, there’s no reply

I bet it never ever occurred to you

That I can’t say hello to you

And then risk another goodbye

It takes everything in me

We made quite a mess and I was too cowardly to resolve all of that
And my bulshet thinking think It's probably better off this way
And I confess, you always come in my dreams recently in every night
In my dreams you're touching my face
And asking me if I wanna try again with you
And I almost do

But I always scare with everything

Although I know I always save with you, It takes everything who closed with us

And I realize those just my bulshet thinking, not with you

It just my bulshet thinking

When I think that you wonder ‘bout me

Finally it just takes everything in me